Thingy of the day

The question is not how many angels can dance on the head of a pin. The question is: what dance are they doing?

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Angel



Angel

She is light shining off of a picture window

she is soft sleepy-time moments and held hands

she is steam rising up from a mug earl grey and the haze of an early morning

she is bees buzzing in the bushes between backyards

she is the patron saint of spiritual silences

she is words that are left unsaid because you don't need to say anything

she is sunshine on a rainy day
she is a smile when everything is in a downward spiral

she is the song on the radio that makes you sing along

she is love letters lost in the mail

she is time well whiled away

she the best angel you'll ever accidentally fall in love with


Transparent

Hello all. Yes, I'm finally posting again! Apologies for the long sabbatical, but there should be more post as of now.
Transparent

All I am is just another transparency, another set of developments of store-bought bones of somebody I never thought I never knew

I am just another X-ray of a bedtime story told to a Chemo patient bombarded by searchlights trying to find what's out of place

Just another photograph of a ghost in somebody's machine

Another see-through messenger who got shot by accident by a somebody with a loaded tongue pointed at the man in the mirror behind me

Another spiritual spirit praying to something I know doesn't exist except in my head, but my head is all that's real to me and my invisible self

Just a monkey wrench in the cogs of life, a spanner in the works of somebody's daydream of a better world

A scanner darkly viewing my own insides like the covers of a book by Philip K. Dick telling of a see-through skeleton in a glass coffin that nobody even knows is there

I am everything you cannot see, and neverything you never wanted to

I am all the small things the experts say don't exist

All the toys in the attic of your mind, tossed into a cardboard box and forgotten but not lost in the shuffling card game that is the mind of its own of the mouths of children

Just a lost soul in a fishbowl on a bookshelf in a library of obituary notices in an empty house

I am a man made of glass who throws stones at himself

I am a photo negative of a holy ghost's imaginary friend

I am transparent.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Shadowtown


Hello all. This week was the end of my teen writing group for me, as I'm turning nineteen this year, and the age limit is eighteen.
Sad as it is, it was an awesome experience while it lasted, and I have to show for it, an entry in a chapbook created by the group, titled Elemental::.
Here is that piece.

Shadowtown.

In Shadowtown, where the sun beats down,

and there’s not one leaf on the trees

there are things ‘neath the stones

that would chill you to your bones,

and make you shiver despite the heat.


A friend and I were passing by

when we came upon this land.

The heat made it shimmer, and I had just a glimmer

of what I would see firsthand.


The people didn’t speak, their faces were bleak,

but what made us stop and stare,

was their feet hit the ground, but made not a sound,

as if they weren’t really there.

Then we looked at the trees, and went weak at the knees,

as the branches seemed to grin,

for there, hanging loose, from every bough was a noose,

empty and blowing in the wind.


They creaked in the gusts, caked, covered in dust,

Mocking us with groaning bones.

For though empty as holes, the ropes they hung low,

with the weight of a ghostly death row.


The tumbleweeds clawed, the crows they all cawed,

as our skins began to crawl.

It looked as though this is where you go

if your evils are dreary and small.



We staggered around the silent crowds

until we reached town square,

where our eyes found another surprise,

in the dry and dusty air.


A statue black, to us his back

was turned, though we could see

it was of a man, his charcoal hands

were reaching to be free.


And then it turned, and my vision blurred

as this silhouette lurched near.

Its face was gone, its limbs too long,

a ghastly silken smear.


Its hands reached out, and it looked to shout,

though it had no voice it seemed.

We ducked around it, and we could feel the sound

it would have made if it could scream.


And out of the gloom more shadows loomed

like puppets without wires.

The people ignored them in silent boredom,

like trees ignoring fires.


We ran through the street, the sound of our feet

in the silence unnaturally loud,

until my friend said ‘We’re as good as dead’

and suddenly turned around.


He said ‘Why bother to run, when what we run from

could catch us before we could blink?’

I put a hand on his back, and his mood seemed so black

I felt my hope starting to sink.




And then he turned to face me, and I’ll never erase

the image burned onto my eyes.

My friend of ten years, his face disappeared,

a creature, blurring, and blind.


I let out a cry and ran until I

was weak, and my breath came in chokes.

To the ground I crashed, and I thought, at last

this was it, and then I awoke.


I was safe sound and home, in my bed all alone,

no silent people, no shadows, no ghostly trees.

I lay back and sighed, thanked God I’m alive,

and finally remembered to breathe.


Swung my feet out of bed, and then shook my head

to clear my ears as I rise.

For though my feet hit the floor, I could have swore

that they didn't make any noise.


In shadowtown, where the sun beats down,

and it never turns to night,

nothing ever grows, and though it always glows,

shadows are darkest in the light.



Thursday, June 24, 2010

Of gods and men


Little worlds all built of dreams, everybody king of his own realm making things dance and jump to their own drum,
building castles in the clouds, sculpting gold bejeweled crowns,
and never even noticing when it all comes crashing down.

All are deities in their own head, all fancy themselves kings among sheep, all are supreme, everybody rules over everybody else,
nobody thinks themselves a servant to anybody but somebody sitting in the sky looking down.

But what are gods but humans with a superiority complex.

And what are humans but gods with blindfolds on.

Friday, June 4, 2010

An essay on emptimess

Many Shades Of White

Nobody knows the nothing I have seen,
nobody knows my boredom.

Dreary days, when nothing changes, all the time washes up in your basement,

All the clouds drift, and all your thoughts slip,
into a slowly shifting maze,

And you start to categorize the apathy passing by,
until it flows away.

Because boredom comes in flavors, after a while you start to savor
all the different doldrums you can taste.

All the days they stick together, like wispy birds with paper feathers, drifting towards a milky way.

and my brain cells start sleeping, the dreariness keeps on keeping
all the words I never said, and never say.

there's too much gloomy light, and there's many shades of white,
and they all blend into another shade of gray.